DXXXRK Diary

  • Touring: London, UK, Monday 2nd November (birthday trip)

    Good afternoon! I finally booked my next trip to London, UK, and I would for you to celebrate my birthday month with me. I’ll be there from Monday 2nd November, and will most likely be staying until 24th November (return date pending). My birthday is on Monday 23rd November, but I would love to get…

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  • Self portrait series – I can do both

    I CAN DO BOTH  I CAN DO BOTH January 2025 CW: Sexual assault Don’t be misled. I can do both. Say hello to D (second skin), and GOOD GRIEF (flesh). My original screen name (DXXXRK) was flagged, and then changed (to Good Grief). DXXXRK is what I considered to be the sticky substance that grew…

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  • Self portrait series – No longer Human

    NO LONGER HUMAN NO LONGER HUMAN 25th January 2026   CW: Mental health, child abuse, death This is where I’ll (hopefully) be when the world ends. In what I call my ‘cute room’. I lacked a safe space as a child, but now I have a locked door and pastel plushies and prints to look…

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  • Self portrait series – Manic, I am / Mannequin

    MANIC, I AM / MANNEQUIN MANIC, I AM / MANNEQUIN 27th September 2025 CW: Sexual Assault Instability requires balance and a good form to counter it. Training takes time, and more importantly, faith in oneself. Keep on rocking on – just mind your ankles. I’ve been on the not-so-fun side of feeling like a doll/mannequin/puppet…

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  • Self portrait series – In Fraganti

    IN FRAGANTI (Red-handed / caught in the act) IN FRAGANTI (red-handed/caught in the act) 7th June 2025 CW: Sexual assault The instax/film I’m burning was taken by a photographer in London, UK. They raped me during a shoot with them almost 14 years ago. That might seem long enough for the imprint to fade, but…

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  • Self portrait series – Tea for 1

    TEA FOR 1 TEA FOR 1 7th February 2025 Tea for 1, featuring Eva Oh’s ‘s port barrel aged oolong tea (which slaps, btw). 99% of the time when I leave the house, I wear Lol!ta fashion (seen here on the right). It’s always been like armour to me, and I don’t know where I’d…

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  • How my lovers make me feel

    Frederic William Burton (1816-1900), ‘Hellelil and Hildebrand, the Meeting on the Turret Stairs’, 1864. “The subject is taken from a medieval Danish ballad translated by Burton’s friend Whitley Stokes in 1855, which tells the story of Hellelil, who fell in love with her personal guard Hildebrand, Prince of Engelland. Her father disapproved of the relationship…

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  • London recap, October 2026 – What I did in 24 hours

    Photo above: Mistress Morningstar and I at Riot Party, October 2026. Shot by @mondaysdontsuck. As I arrived in London Gatwick airport on Wednesday last week, I did something I’ve never done before. I left my baggage behind in baggage claim. I (un)fortunately noticed the second I went through those “No return” double doors. I had…

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  • Why the man who “Doesn’t need to pay for it” still reaches for Me

    I’ve had the same young gentleman reach out to me on multiple occasions over the years. Let’s call him H. H met me in person while I was on a date with one of my lovers a few years ago. He was clearly very talented in his field (I won’t say which one), as well…

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  • Website maintenance from 22nd September 2026

    Good evening, Please note that my website might not look like it’s usual gorgeous self from Tuesday 22nd September, or be temporarily in ‘maintenance mode’. Please keep an eye on my social media for updates. I’m excited to see you again in London next week. I ordered a few new implements to punish and please.…

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