DXXXRK Diary
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Trigger warning: Mental Health, Self Harm Good afternoon. I hope your weekend has started better than mine. Earlier this week, I shared images of me walking around the kitchen in my strap-on while I was making dinner. Off-screen, my mind has been in the all-too familiar dark place. It’s fitting to my name (both of…
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“How do you live if you don’t know how to suffer? Good morning, I’m currently sat at the kitchen table with a cup of tea, wearing a long, pink, vintage M&S nightgown, and a fluffy pink robe with Hello Kitty’s ears and face revealed when the hood is up. I’m reminded of an ex-play partner…
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Trigger warning: Rape, sexual assault The lack of sex education and its increased censorship is weakening our understanding of humanity. With sex being something that connects most human beings, misinformation on what happens when the connection is undesired, is harmful. Some still see rape as being at the fault of the victim, or a “misunderstanding”…
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“I will forever be reminded of the disappointment of men when I am approached without tribute.” Thanks to Nik, I am now mentioned on the UK Mistress Guide. In recent years, I’ve only played with people I have met in the wild/in person, usually through others, as it’s been the best way (for me) to…
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When people say all queer and kink folk are mentally ill, I roll my eyes. First of all, who cares – worry about yourself, love. More importantly, I’m not these things because I’m mentally ill, but some of the reason why I am ill is because the world is actively cruel to those who are…
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Trigger warning: Mental health, suicide, rape, child abuse, self harm If BPD had a song, it would be M83’s ‘Outro’. If it had a movement, it would be the hesitation before one would attempt suicide. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder in October 2020, which was pretty late in life. BPD, also known as…
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I remember my first latex purchase. It was a maid dress from Sharon Sloane. I attempted to try it on in the bathroom, without a dressing aid. I was 17 at the time, and trying to impress the guy I lost my virginity to. Anyway, it rips (obviously), and I guess I threw it in…
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When I use to model, I was also a professional rigger (non-suspension). These days, I tie mostly for solo play or when I’m wrapping gifts for friends. I’ve had a lot of people over the years come across me in Shibari, asking for advice on rope, video tutorials, books, etc. I’m gonna put it all…
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We’re gonna be focusing on two main questions today: 1. Why do men think less of other men who enjoy being dominated? 2. Why do people think women hate men because they enjoy dominating them? Is it the lack of education, our thoughts on our own shame and insecurities, or simply what happens when gender…
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“In short – before I was DXXXRK, I was Zex“ Trigger Warning: Child abuse, sexual assault, court experience, self harm, suicide Good evening, It’s nice to meet you. You may call me GOOD GRIEF or DXXXRK. I would’ve stayed as DXXXRK, but the Internet/social media really doesn’t like names with with three Xs. It’s totally…
