DXXXRK Diary
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Valentine’s Day has always felt very spiritual to me. Although it’s mostly associated with overpriced floral arrangements and cheap thoughts, it’s a moment for me to reflect on my love for close ones – living and deceased. One of my most honoured Valentine’s was attending a funeral when I was young. It just felt like such…
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Good evening. I hope the start of your year hasn’t been too cold. My body was pretty rundown on the previous trip to London and I’ve only just recovered. It’s been a fairly disappointing start in general, but I’m always open to something unexpected to make me smile. I’ll be back in London this month.…
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Photo above by Miss Gold at One Night Parties, October 2025 Good evening. It’s been a while. How have you been? My previous trip to London did not disappoint. I was well fed. I (literally) had flesh to sink my teeth into (thank you, L), as well as beautiful evenings with wonderful beings. I had…
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Good evening, Last minute to those not already in My circle. I’ll be in London from tomorrow. I will stay until I get bored. I’m already full of entertainment, but you may appropriately introduce yourself to Me now. My IRL availability is currently from Monday 3rd November. It’s been a while, so I’m very in…
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Trigger warning: Mental Health, Self Harm Good afternoon. I hope your weekend has started better than mine. Earlier this week, I shared images of me walking around the kitchen in my strap-on while I was making dinner. Off-screen, my mind has been in the all-too familiar dark place. It’s fitting to my name (both of…
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“How do you live if you don’t know how to suffer? Good morning, I’m currently sat at the kitchen table with a cup of tea, wearing a long, pink, vintage M&S nightgown, and a fluffy pink robe with Hello Kitty’s ears and face revealed when the hood is up. I’m reminded of an ex-play partner…
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Trigger warning: Rape, sexual assault The lack of sex education and its increased censorship is weakening our understanding of humanity. With sex being something that connects most human beings, misinformation on what happens when the connection is undesired, is harmful. Some still see rape as being at the fault of the victim, or a “misunderstanding”…
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“I will forever be reminded of the disappointment of men when I am approached without tribute.” Thanks to Nik, I am now mentioned on the UK Mistress Guide. In recent years, I’ve only played with people I have met in the wild/in person, usually through others, as it’s been the best way (for me) to…
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When people say all queer and kink folk are mentally ill, I roll my eyes. First of all, who cares – worry about yourself, love. More importantly, I’m not these things because I’m mentally ill, but some of the reason why I am ill is because the world is actively cruel to those who are…
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Trigger warning: Mental health, suicide, rape, child abuse, self harm If BPD had a song, it would be M83’s ‘Outro’. If it had a movement, it would be the hesitation before one would attempt suicide. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder in October 2020, which was pretty late in life. BPD, also known as…
