I’ve had the same young gentleman reach out to me on multiple occasions over the years. Let’s call him H. H met me in person while I was on a date with one of my lovers a few years ago. He was clearly very talented in his field (I won’t say which one), as well as cute. At the time of meeting, I didn’t think we’d cross paths again, or if we did, it would only be at similar events.

I would not have expected H to repeatedly seek me out over the last few years.

It’s been bothersome at times, but I gained some valuable research through his insolence. As long as I’m getting something out of it, I’ll consider it. Like how a cat brings a mouse into the house, but they don’t kill it – they just play with it. Useful. Entertaining. A snack to lightly chew on and spit out.

H knows that I am cruel (in a nice way) selfish, firm, but still nurturing. He respects Me because I do not bullshit who I am. He knows what I want, and what he needs to do to get a taste.

H has been obsessed with the idea of being filled by Me for years, yet he decided to brag about the young women he fucks for free. “I’ve not even had to buy girls a drink recently”, he says. Needless to say, this doesn’t work for Me, and H has yet to have the honour of serving Me.

Me: “If you can get it for free, then why do you keep approaching Me?”

Him: “There’s something about you!”

The men who see Me and My fellow gorgeous spicy friends, are not simply “paying for sex”. It is a misconception. What we actually offer is discreet and skilled intimacy, as well as further access to us, and H here knows it.

We offer the comfort for you to reveal who you really are, and what you truly seek. A relationship/dynamic without the full weight of commitment. A fleeting, scheduled release, that leaves a wicked mark. It’s a fucking craft. We know we’re good at our job, and even if you have yet to experience it, you know it, too.

Misconceptions of those who respect My time
People seem to think that My lovers look or behave in an undesirable way, and that someone will only touch or speak to them if they “pay for it”. Attractiveness is subjective (I define it by bond, aura and how one carries themselves), but I don’t keep anyone in My inner circle if they do not respect Me. I think it’s weird to think less of a man because he chose to respect our time, but you think it’s less degrading to seek access at the lowest number. I prefer there to be an investment – not just in My job.

H is not the only man to test Me. Men (including rich and successful), are always trying to see if they can access Me “for free” – as if it’s some kind of skill to berate a woman out of being wooed, but nothing is truly free. Even what H wanted wasn’t technically free. Zero is still a number that comes with conditions and risks – risks that can be expensive, time consuming, or even carry resentment. That instant gratification might actually cost you.

If you’re happy with that dynamic/risk, then by all means, go for it, but…why are you here again?

– Good Grief / DXXXRK